Sunday-  Off to a slow non productive start for the most part.  Continued on wit the Star Wars marathon as the rain settled back in.  Been tryin to troubleshoot the pc upstairs thats now gotten messed up thanx to a microsoft "bad patch" that it had installed.  Now i cant even get into windows at all and bein system restore had been turned off i cant set it back to a version that wasnt corrupted.  So tryin to figure out a plan to save all the data and emails and applications filled out or i could be in a world of hurt.  Went through the rest of the day tryin to get somethin to work but it didnt take.  We got up to episode 6 of star wars before we called it a day, watched some political shows and took a hot shower before retiring to bed outta sheer boredome cause everyone had went to bed. Started readin the 2nd book in the Godfather trilogy (The Godfather Returns) and enjoyed the peach and quiet of a house somewhat restored for a day since my in-law never showed up.  Wifey was a lil unnerved but i was quite content even though i know it aint gonna stick probably

 

Monday- Started out slow.  Was in bed when phone rang.  Was the bank updatin me sayin the debt consolidation loan was approved but is contingent on me gettin this job (ooooof course)  So i called up the job lead who i caught off guard bein it was so early in the am and let the bank and him hammer out some facts on what each other needs to make this deal on both sides work since its a "hypothetical" standoff on both sides.  They exchange fax #'s and ish and we disconnect. Watch some of the DNC coverage on MSNBC then came downstairs and watched a couple tivo'd shows.  Later my job lead calls me again with some off the wall ish i had to shut down in its tracks.  He asks me have i considered refinancing my HOUSE and consolidating my debt into my mortgage.  I was immediately turned off but let him say his peace and state his case.  He stated as such because at this job they dont consider your mortgage as debt so basically id be "hiding" my credit card debt on paper.  I told'em 1st of all i concede the point that 4-5 cards with x amount of debt does look bad yes.  but 4-5 cards = x, 1 loan = x or a mortgage + x = y either way with loan or refinancing house id still have same amt of $$ comin out of my pocket per month just one is hiding it the other is consolidating it.  second, you STILL not guaranteeing me a job if i DO refinance so why would i go and finance my debt into the term of my mortgage and i still potentially end up with nothing.  He conceded the point.  I asked him had he even pressed it through with the p/t that he brought to the table last week.  Again answered in the negative.  So i was done with the convo, i told'em you press it through AS IS with the loan consolidation, and/or the p/t.  If they decline well i gotta go cause im wastin time jumpin through all these hurdles and not getting any guarantees.  He acknowledged and we got off the phone. 

 

Wifey came home a couple hrs later and i relayed the info to her then me and Tamia walked around the corner to her school for the 1st grade reading assessment test she had to take to place her in the proper class.  I ended up meetin up wit my gurl D who was bringin her daughter that was Tamia's classmate to the assessment as well.  We talked and laughed and caught up a bit since i hadnt seen her in a couple months.  They went in and did their thing while we talked and her daughter came out before mine so they took off 5 min before we did.  She eventually came back out and the teacher said she did GREAT and obviously had been practicing!  I was very proud of her!  Grabbed up some free books they had sittin in a bin in the hallway and walked home.  When i got there after racing Tamia home in a sprint (that lil gurl is pretty fast!) i found the inlaws car in the driveway... greeeat.  I go inside through the garage and turned on the water and upstairs to grab a shower.  Come back downstairs as mother in law was leavin wit the last of her stuff.  She says bye and i wave (with a smile) and keep about doin what i was doin.  Fired up the trailblazer and headed up the street to have a Sangria wit Cake and socialize since i havent sat down and convo'd wit her in forever!  Headed north from there to my parents house to grab up software i was gonna need to redo my crashed pc then stopped by the cane again for awhile.  Headed home from there and held yet another intense convo wit wifey about her mother.  She spoke her peace then i spoke all of mine from beginning to end makin her concede fact after fact that the way she approached me in the 1st place TELLIN me her mom was gon wasnt right and the 2 major points that when her mom was askedkin her if she could stay here 1) i shouldve been involved in the INITIAL convo and that they were bein shady with channeling it through her cause they knew she'd cave and id stand our ground when she wont and 2) as her husband SHE then shouldve shut it down and said im married, i have kids and i dont live alone so we need to talk as a collective and come to an understanding.  I made her concede the points that it started as an open ended offer wit no close, a blank check and i knew that in the 1st place and wasnt cool with it.  In the end i told her she can stay for the month and a half that she (her mom) said she'd need.  but come oct 1st i want her GONE. point blank period.  Its not our problem it was their boneheaded decision and the stress on this household has only intensified with her presence.  I went and reshowered since in all my runnin around i got a lil sweaty and came back and watched tv wit wifey ended up crashin on the loveseat in front of the bed till 3am where i got up and got in bed.

 

Tuesday-  Woke up and finished watchin tivo'd DNC footage and worked on the pc a lil.  Windows loaded on an aux drive i have (60gb, 300 gb, and 400gb drives in my pc)  so i was able to recover my documents and pics on the 300 and move it to the 400 drive.  Talked to lil momma throughout the day as she was runnin around like a chicken without a head lookin for a rand mcnally mapbook w/disc.  Always funny and entertainin talkin to that girl lol. Wifey txt'd me asked if i wanted to sitdown and talk with the inlaws about her stayin here to "do it right" i replied what for? damage has already been done no point in tryin to backtrack it now.  I told her nope long as she knows oct 1 is the deadline and she respects this household, our rules, and cleans up after HERSELF (shes left messes in Tamia's room that she's had to clean up, as well as in the kitchen).  Frankly shes NEVER helped cook a meal in the house and that ive seen only put $40 into this house yet our water, electricity, sewage, and food consumption goes up..up..UP.  Wifey eventually called when she was off work and i was unstairs gettin the last of the files transferred over on the pc so hopefully nothin'll be lost when i officially crash and reinstall it. Job lead called and said all was bein sent up for approval and we'd know the following day if i can get the job or not.  I applied for a couple other jobs online still pressin forward in the journey of gettin re-employed.  Got an email from my old boss checkin in and pretty much called me out about the title "warden" lol i chuckled but didnt reply cause i want to have some news to report when i do.  Was amused on how he knew about it though cause the only way that would be known is if there was a snitch that reads my book of lon and reported it back to him as if it was somethin to tell.  Well now im callin YOU out.  Everyone here is not mentioned by name but code talk so my codename for you is SNITCH.  You see me in the street dont even acknowledge my presence cause i want nothin to do wit you and your gossip ways.  Wifey came home wit Fatburger so we sat around the table and partook of the fruits to our disappointment.  Watched some tivo'd shows together then upstairs to watch DNC coverage and the Hillary speech.  Was fairly impressed myself.  Showered and off to bed.

 

Wednesday-  Lazy slow morning.  Stayed in bed watchin Q13 news then moved it over to... (drum roll) MSNBC!  They werent sayin much just buzzin over Clinton's speech then some republican idiots (Guliani) tryin to split hairs and parse words of "but she didnt say this! so dah dah dah!" If you listened to the whole speech you ol bastards you'd know you dont have to use exact words for it to have the same meaning and conclusion you accusin her of not reachin.  Had to turn away before i threw somethin at my own tv.  Watched some tivo'd shows then went downstairs to check the mail.  Of course cant hide the fact i have a dandilion field again so pulled out the lawnmower to make it look green like the other yards lol.  Came in and we all had lunch and watched more MSNBC.  Let the kids go play in the backyard while i watched some shows and did some online surf'n and lettin the day rot away.  Eventually the ol' lady came home so i was off duty wit the kids lol Made for nothin productive though just more DNC coverage allllll day into the evening.  Watchin Bill Clinton talk, Joe Biden.... feelin the energy wishin i could be there to see it live!  Eventually went upstairs to grab a shower then back down to watch some tivo'd shows and off to bed by 0100.

 

Thursday-  Started out slow watchin the news then of course MSNBC.  Heard the recycle man in the neighborhood earlier than usual so gathered up the recycle and took the bin to the corner.  Eventually came downstairs to feed the brood lunch and check the mail.  Got my daughter's lil postcard announcing who her teacher will be and stuff. how exciting!.  Got the phonecall FINALLY from my job lead sayin they gonna go ahead and take me on for the p/t position and in a year go fulltime if i so desire.  Hey whatever it takes to get me in the door.  Will likely go to training next month we'll see when i go on tuesday to sign the official paperwork.  Well took a lil catnap since not much was goin on on MSNBC and woke up to the cluck who'd been outside the lve talkshows of Hardball w/Chris Matthews, and Race for the white house w/David Gregory.  Over and over wit his bullhorn for 2hrs he'd yell "9/11 WAS AN INSIDE JOB!!! 9/11 WAS AN INSIDE JOB!!"  He actually was so loud specfically today that both shows actually had to stop for a second and apologize for his ignorance lol  I actually was able to finally see'em myself as he must've hoisted himself on his partners shoulders.  While watchin'em my phone rang again and it was the job lead sayin disregard his last, they decided to go fulltime not parttime wit my hiring and should be signin papers to get training on tuesday.  Hung up the phone feelin a sense of relief that this unemployment drought will finally be over soon after 7 long months.  That absolutely incredible to me. 7 long months.  When wifey came home we all sat around the tv for what would be a night we'd never forget in our lifetime.  We watched Barack Obama make his nomination speech for the presidency of the United States of America.  It was so powerful and important to watch as a family because in our lifetime they'll probably never be another legitiment African American candidate for the presidency.  So whether people open their eyes to the message of hope that he truly brings to the U.S. vs the 4 more years of bushonomics this moment is truly a moment in history.  After it was over watchin the commentators stumblin over each other was somethin for the comics lol.  Even Pat Buchanan an avid republican was fawning over the speech and that caught even more people off guard.  I watched'em for awhile then got up full of energy and went and ran on the treadmill doin 1.1miles in 10:30.  Still not where i need to be but good start for takin the last 1.5wks off.  Jumped off dripping wit sweat as if i just went into double overtime in the bedroom layin that d**k down hahahahaha  Jumped in the shower then back out to watch Big Brother wit wifey then back downstairs to record the Obama speech onto DVD to be put into storage to years from now sit down wit my kids and recall this special moment in history.  If any of you need a copy to watch and keep in safe storage lemme know ill be more than happy to burn it onto disc for you free of charge.

 

Friday- Well started out with my jaw on the floor.  Turned on the tv to see who the Republican VP was and was sucked like all the rest of america.  Never even heard of the lady before but i sure hope america isnt fooled that it dont matter that theres a woman on the ballot, its what the top of the ticket (mccain) stands for and is about and if she was smart she'd even see how anti woman he truly is.  Interesting they only met 2x before he knew she was the one to be his vp and only been a governor for 18months.  Was pretty stunned all day watchin it and workin on the pc upstairs.  Later in the day finally went through all the mags ive been lettin build up downstairs tryin to get my mind off the shock.  Came downstairs and ran 1.1 miles to burn the rest of the energy off then into the shower.  Watched a lil sesame street with my son since wifey had came and got Tamia and took to my parents house for the weekend.  Watched some tivo'd shows recorded and studied a lil bit for this career and off to bed.

 

Saturday- Slept in a lil bit since wifey had the boy downstairs, got up and turned on the tv to watch the day's events wit politics and Gustav.  Worked on the computer a lil gettin it back up on internet etc when i get a txt from a friend who had asked me last nyte what i thought about Palin bein on the ticket.  I wrote'em an email last night givin my opinion based off what ive learned about both tickets.  Well this am she comes at me sayin she knew she shouldnt have said anything to me cause im so opinionated and hostile.  Im like WHAT?? are you kiddin me?! you ASK my opinion then act like you got buyers remorse cause i spit educated fact at you not just off the cuff opinion and you wanna attack me?  So i called her ignorant which then leads to argument as she comes at me sayin one can only call you ignorant so many times before it becomes offensive.  I told her YOU attack me callin me "opinionated" when 1st of all you came to me askin my opinion and what i gave was factual based not just talkin ish, and "hostile" when all i did was told you the truth!  Yeah on HERE it is now hostile cause now im f**kin PISSED.  She then counters wit the ultimate low.  "no wonder you lose a lot of friends"  Now that right there is when i always did become hostile as Lucy had pressed the same button and i took the bait.  I was ready to light FIRE to that a** for talkin to me like that but i chose a different road.  Not the higher road but a different road cause i had already started to type F**K YOU but i deleted and just left it at, "no i lose friends cause they DRUNK DIAL me and dont like what they hear as a result"  Which was the truth as according to her admission the previous night she had been drinking wit her dude.  Well, you dont wanna hear the truth, take your drunk a** on then and dont talk to me about somethin you dont wanna hear the truth on.  How the hell do you NOT claim ignorance where for months (if not still now) you openly admit you refuse to educate yourself about obama and his policy plans for the future?  You just gonna vote party lines or off only religious beliefs.  that IS ignorance by definition and i dont know of anyone that wouldnt back me up wit tellin someone that cause if they dont they lyin to your FACE.  I take pride in givin my insight/opinion to anyone that asks me cause i make sure i know what the hell im talkin about before i say anything otherwise id TELL you dont quote me on it and that im not sure.  But when it comes to politics i sit here ALL day watchin the news and readin newsweek and their website so i take great pride in knowin how anti-woman mccain is and the fool he's tryin to make of women to hide his record by puttin a woman on the ticket! prove it?  Check his votin record on equal pay for women (voted against), check his record on assistance to single family women (voted against), hell he wears it out on his sleeve about a womans right to choose (against it).  Now i back him on that one as im against abortion* and that "*" is i am ok with it in cases of rape, incest, and threat to ones life.  But Palin? She's against it even in THOSE scenarios too.  Now to me thats just too extreme.  What did my email say?  The EXACT email will be attached at the very bottom of this chapter for your viewing.  NOTHING has been altered or changed its intregity preserved.  Went about my day working on the PC and called up to T-Mobile inquiring about gettin my wife a blackberry as when im away on business she'll be left to pay the bills and 90% of our bills are e-bill.  Did some laundry and watched the final installment of star wars wit wifey and thats the week!

 

since you were drinkin and wouldnt call me another friend of mine wanted to discuss
it as well so ill just send you what i typed them:

yeah i been sittin here in the house stunned for most of the day.  It was a move
even i didnt see comin and i study MSNBC all freakin day.  Totally just took the
wind out of the democrats sails by dominating the newscycle ALL day.  

Studyin what they say about her i just dont get it and he's got alot of republicans
upset about it.  He passed up a lot of qualified female republicans and he only 
met palin 2x per the news and he suddenly feels she's what he needs to win? 
Is this man senile?  she's got ZERO foriegn experience so i cant imagine what
the hell he's thinkin that if he croaks she's able to talk iran down from
goin nuclear? I dont wanna be male shovenist but i seriously dont see ANY of those
presidents/dictators takin a woman seriously with "stern talk" they'd
probably laugh and say b**ch go bake me cookies!  Now dont get me wrong, if Clinton
was the top of the demo ticket i'd vote for her cause shes' got experience
and a backbone that guys wouldnt walk over her but this palin to me is just a hockey
mom like she said she is thats working her way up.  mayor of a 9k town for awhile
then only governor for 18months? Now i know they argue yeah well obama has no experience
but at least he's ON the floor in the senate with knowledge of how washington
works and foreign affairs and has BEEN to those countries. this woman knows nothin
bout washington and even by her own interviews before bein notified of her bein 
chosen was like "i dont even take this seriously!"

But what worries me is women are gonna vote blindly just cause its a woman and they
want a woman in the highest office but not realizin you votin for MCCAIN not Palin
and bein mccain voted WITH bush over 90% of the time (factually checked) they're
votin for a 3rd term bush just cause they want a woman in office! Is it worth makin
the nation suffer another 4yrs of economic hardships just cause you want to have
a woman in office?  That scares me cause WE gotta live here too if people go and
make a boneheaded decision cause they still pissed about Hillary losing.  McCain
is so anti-woman its not funny and like a wiseman he goes and gets a woman to try
to cover that fact up that he voted against equal pay for women, voted against single
parent assistance rather sayin they need to be further educated, when some guy on
the campaign trail called hillary a BITCH he just laughed and didnt correct it, 
just a horrible man.  I dont wanna take a 10% chance of change with him.  If he 
was gonna change the nation why hasnt he done that the 26yrs hes been in the senate?
why should we believe him NOW? That by default makes one believe obama more cause
even though we dont have a "track record" of his accomplishments he wants
to change it as he did southside chicago when he started his political career, so
who would you believe the guy who says gimme that chance to change the nation like
i did in chicago, congress, and senate or the guy who hasnt changed anything in 
26yrs in the senate and even in the 8yrs since his last presidential campaign but
NOW that he got the nomination says ill do it! ill do it! He ran off the rhetoric
of having experience and judgement to lead then gets a VP with NEITHER!

Now im very much pro-gun myself.  I have that ak that obama referred to just not
the gang affliation ;) and i am anti-abortion/pro-life but even i type that with
an asterick cause rape/incest/threat to life i feel its ok.  shes against it even
in those cases and to me thats just too extremist. and once women and the rest of
this nation really start searchin their backgrounds in those instances that palin
by default is grouped into mccain's anti-woman voting record, its as if she 
was set up for failure (if it dont work) the senile 72yo man gambled and lost.  
And to see Palin and Biden debate in october? OMG i fear for her he'd tongue-twist
the woman on suni/shite factions and other foriegn affairs that she has no knowledge
of but will be forced to "study up" in the next 67 days to SEEM knowledgeable
of issues she admits knows nothin of.  You put the future of our nation in the hands
of that?  That immediately made me reconsider joining the military.

But id be HONORED to say i served in Obama's navy cause i know his intentions
are to keep me OUT of harms way and military action LAST not first.  If mccain wins
expect me to be writing you from Afghanistan, Iraq, Iran, and/or Russia.  Dont rule
out N. Korea if they restart their nuke program.  i will be watchin the RNC all 
next week as im very open minded of learning about both sides of the election and
the knowledge i can bring to you and other friends that threaten to vote strictly
along party lines or religious beliefs.  Black and White. but this world is a prism.
If you happy wit the way life is, the economy, and the future for your kids and 
specifically your daughters, i guess mccain truly is your candidate.  But if not,
you better do sincere homework on obama and you'll learn who's truly for
you as a woman and your daughters and for changin this economy, the rhetoric of 
"more of the same" pertaining to mccain really is a gimic. If he voted
with bush more than 90% of the time, you really wanna gamble on 10% of change?

Watch this link thats his acceptance speech and details EVERYTHING he will try to
do for you and me in his presidency.  If you never do anything else for me ever 
in your life please watch this for me.  I had even my kids sit with me and kelitha
and watch it because this was very important to us as African-Americans.  Not as
democrats but as African-Americans because chances are NEVER in our lives will we
have another African American presidential candidate with a viable shot of really
becoming president.  So to hear him speak and accept the nomination was a moment
in history that i'll never forget and recorded it onto DVD to one day again 
show my kids when they're older to understand that this really was something
in our modern day the equivalent of Martin Luther King's speech at Washington
Capital.  So please do watch it all the way through if not for the political knowledge,
for the historical. (and no no need to donate just press play on the clip)

https://donate.barackobama.com/page/content/acceptancespeechnd?source=feature_nom

Sunday- Oh the drama was still ongoing.  She just took it way too far wit me last week.  So all communication was at a minimum all day and i much preferred it that way.  We went to the fruit market to stock up and comin back up on the hill stopped at Toys R Us real quick to get training wheels for my daughters bike we got for her birthday back in April.  She never learned how to ride a bike growin up so she has no concept of balancin her weight, steering and pedaling all at once.  Then to Costco where we spent an extraordinary amt of $$ for our household. ($300).  Came home and watched tv as usual for a bit and ate then took Tamia over to the school to crash course learn how to ride.  I made sure the training wheels were loose so she wouldnt get comfortable usin'em but get the sense of balance usin'em as a weak guide.  She struggled for awhile afraid she was gonna fall off (the bike is kinda big for her) We gradually moved from the parking lot to other parts of the playground.  It was quite frustrating as i dont have much patience lately with all the stress goin on.  I needed to run since i hadnt all day and even though i was wearin my crocs i did 2 laps around a square walking path they have draggin my daughter behind me by grabbin her handle bars and makin her peddle so she'd get the concept.  Finally we stopped at the basketball course and i made her trace the yellow boundary line to practice her steering.  She finally got it so we moved back to the parking lot and told her you wanna go home you gonna have to peddle home cause we aint walkin the bike back (we had walked it to the school)  So protested in tears but she knew i was serious and sho nuff she got the concept and she peddled home.  I showered and crashed on the couch with a minor sinus headache watchin tv and more intellectual convos wit lil momma

 

Monday- Was hopin for a good productive day on the employment front but that soon proved false and only got worse.  Bummin round the house for the most part enjoyin the cooled down weather.  Decided to move the sub box in my trailblazer to the 3rd row since its not bein used fulltime and its been a nuisance not bein able to utilize the trunk space.  So got that re-wired and got a special guest appearance from my gurl Cake who i havent seen in probably a month.  Caught me off guard and unshowered but hey consequences of poppin up like that!  Went back inside and started a round of civilization when i get a knock on the door.  Whaaaat the heck.  pause and answer the door and its one of my job contacts droppin by to deliver news.  Ugh.  Invite'em in and we talk at the bar (no drinkin though lol) He tells me that the top dogs are now recyclin all past problems AGAIN.  Finances, not believin wifey will find another job and re-locate, WHY am i watchin my kids full-time.  I look at him and sit on top of my bar like are you serious?!  Why do i watch my kids full-time?!  CAUSE IM NOT DOIN ANYTHING  ELSE WHY WOULDNT I?!  Even when i was workin i still kept my kids full-time because im very active in my kids lives, not cause we cant afford to we chose not to.  What you want? A sworn statement from my wife sayin she prooomises them that she'll find a job wherever we land?  Its THEM draggin their feet thats preventin me from securin the loan i need to consolidate debt to levels they deem appropriate!  So he tells me then that they i guess didnt feel the personal references were good enough and wanted the contact info for my last 3 jobs!  Its as if they testin me to see how many buttons they can push before i say ENOUGH.  Keep pressin though cause i aint cavin in.  I give'em the names and numbers of everyone they need and bid him ado and go back to my game.  Wifey eventually arrives wit her mom and im really not in the mood so i retire to the bedroom to take a long shower.  She interrupts it wit her attitude about whats wrong wit me i tell her im pissed off and frustrated and debrief her about the job status.  She avoids the point i had made that i was pissed off at her and closes the door.  I eventually emerge and start watchin my political shows.  She emerges again askin if i wanted to talk some more so i oblige.  We end up gettin into it pretty loudly about the finer points from her mom to her blatant disrespect on saturday night.  After she responds wit sayin she meant what she had said last week about Tamia bad behavior bein partially my fault for not takin her out i told her we have nothin further to say to each other.  We get into it again and i tell her to get out and dont talk to me.  Period. Get out.  She leaves the room w/out protest and we spent most of the night in separate rooms (till she came back in the room to go to bed) 

 

Tuesday- Spent some of the morning in bed not wantin to get up but had to cause Marcus was actin a damn fool.  Get them fed and let them play while i lounge awatin more info on the job front.  Eventually phone does ring and he tells me he got meetings get for the following day with the corrections center for starters and workin it out wit the rest.  Coca-cola was running minor interference with not verifying my employment so i told him id see what i could do.  I end up callin up to Bellevue and gettin an employment verification line and forward it back to my contact dude.  Opted to play yet a daily installment of Civilization then wife came home.  Didnt take her long to get started either.  "So what do you wanna do?  Get separated or divorced?"  I was instantly livid.  I told her "if thats where your mind is then do what you gotta do and show me where to sign cause i think its truly pathetic that you'd go to such an extreme vs apologize."  We go back and forth gettin loud yet again and me cuttin her off cause i already told her before if you aint gonna apologize i have nothin to say to you.  So dont sit here and think im gonna let you argue a point to me about how you dont feel you were wrong when im the one thats offended!  Im gonna love watchin her reaction when the kids grow up and get into trouble (hopefully not too much) and other parents, officers, or teachers question her as a parent that they acted in such a manner just like we do to people on tv shows. She'd be floored that anyone questioned her parenting yet she makes  statement to me that i take as questioning mine and she dont thinks she's outta line? f**kin hypocrite, whatever dont talk to me.  I finish my game up after a couple hours (lol was pretty intense conquering the world!)  I watch the shows downstairs that we normally watch in common but now separately, go upstairs to shower, watch my political shows and bed.

 

Wednesday- Not much at all goin down.  straightened up a lil, went downstairs to the trailblazer to get my planner to pay a bill and heard this weird chirping, realized it was my radar detector makin sounds as it was losin power.  The battery in the truck goin dead AAAAAGAIN cause i hadnt disconnected it.  Whatever i didnt even worry about it let it die.  Pay the bill, then since its been on my mind to write another letter to this job im tryin to get i wrote a 1 page letter discussing yet again the finer points of why i wanna work wit'em and that finances nor relocation is not an issue.  Shoot it off in an email and press on wit my day doin a load of dishes, takin out the garbage then makin some boooooomb salmon i got from Costco that was one of those "take and bake" dinners.  Ugh it was sooooooo good.  Even got props from the in-law when they ate some for dinner (no i dont participate in the dinnertable dinners either im truly disgusted by her behavior)  Talked to my gurl Cake finally who'd been M.I.A all day due to a dead cell battery and phone service provider flubbin up txt feature on her sk4.  Went about doin another installment of Civilization (the game is addictive!), showered and watched my political shows then bed.

 

Thursday- Got the kids all showered up while watchin a lil of the news. Cleaned the rooms a lil and loadin another load in the dishwasher (which for the record, in-law as assumed NO responsibilites in the house, no contributing to the light/water/sewer bill, rent, NOTHIN yet eats the food, and watches tv) when my cell rang.  Called back and it was my job lead sayin he was gonna stop by.  OOOOkie dokie not like im doin anything.  He gets here and we hammer out my email'd letter and what could be fine tuned and changed to make it better which i had been expecting.  He then tells me about what happened when he went to the corrections center the day before.  Tells me he sat down wit Warden Steve who had a bunch of nice positive things to say but then after leavin he faxed over his letter of recommendation that contained the key phase that tanked the WHOLE letter. "... has an issue with procedural compliance..."  Just like that, his whole letter was null and void.  I was PISSED.  Can you not hold your tongue just for ONE sentence?!  So i gave him 2 other jobs i worked for in the past to use them if necessary cause this all has gone on way too long.  I re-write my letter for'em and he takes off after giving me another option of startin parttime with possibility of full time hours and after a year goin full time.  After feedin the kids i check the mail to assure no letters of rejection, got an opt out letter from our mortgage lender to not sell our info to other mortgage companies so that should diminish mail clutter.  Then i decide to send an email to warden steve askin him if he could reconsider his wording in the letter as that one day phase voided the letter.  He asked me what did i tell'em happened that led to my release.  I told'em "i was let go for violation of SOP handling a 911 call" which was much softer than "issue with procedural compliance" which is MUCH broader and damaging.  we exchanged emails a couple times before he told'em me finally to call'em.  So i call immediately and discuss the full situation and he tells me his side of what happened and why he said it that way.  He tells me of their sitdown and that he praised me and tried to word it as best as he could to do damage control (the letter had to explain why i was fired).  He then revealed to me what he me crackin up inside.  Apparently Warden Steve had signed a "no disclosure" form that what was discussed wouldnt get back to me.  Well by my job lead tellin me earlier what was said (procedural compliance) that was a violation of that no disclosure!  So now he was in an "oh s**t" mode sandwiched between Warden Steve and myself tired of the run around.  Warden Steve tells me he's gonna get back in touch with the job lead and ask'em what does he need to do to get me this job cause he wants me to have it.  Get back to him tmrw with the answer or he'll go ABOVE him to get the answer.  Im sure that had'em shook at that point lol noooo more shadow games.  So i then txt my job lead advisin him that warden steve'll be back in touch wit'em about touchin up the reference letter (me not knowin that warden had already been in touch wit'em prior to me and him talkin on the phone).  guess that explains why i havent heard back from my lead at the point of this bein typed lol.  Probably still shook that he got caught up.  Shouldve told me that info was privileged and i never wouldve said anything!  Got up later on and baked some teriyaki chicken and hot wing drumstickes...thats right, real fullsize drumsticks with hotwing sauce lol.  I talked to my gurl Cake as she was drivin home wit a migraine about the days events until Kelitha and her mom (dun dun duuuuun) got home so i retired to the bedroom w/out a word to her to watch my political shows.  Was kinda bummed to see one of'em "Verdict w/ Dan Abrams" was bein cancelled so today was the last episode. 

 

From there uploaded some of those movies i'd been uploadin to my computer onto my ipod.  Watched the credits to the Disneyworld dvd and finally just burst into tears.  All the stresses over the last 7 months and the last couple weeks finally got to me.  2007 I was on top of the world. The height of my life, blowin money like it was goin outta style (some of you may remember from the showering of gifts for christmas)  and now im in the fight of my life just to stay afloat and only one friedn who actually talks to me daily.  Just one.  I reached out again in another attempt to my old friend Lucy and out the gate it turned ugly on her half.  Cant say i blame her but i wish she'd be more forgiving.  In the end she concluded with "...too lil too late, now leave me alone." and just like that a friendship was over i guess.  Cant force anyone to forgive you for bein a complete a**hole and make it right but ill surely take that lesson ive learned from that mistake and make sure i dont do it to the rest of you.  So if you do read this Lucy,  Im very sorry.

 

Friday- And 1 week to the day that the war of the roses....er.....harris's started, in the early hours of the morning it ended.  I went to bed round midnightish after talkin to Cake for awhile but woke up to my son fussin round 0300 so went to check on him and he felt soaked so changed his shirt, diaper, crib sheet, the works.  Went back to bed but couldnt sleep at all so tossed and turned and let my mind wonder from my life and problems, to Cake, to Marie, to my friendship ending wit Lucy, to how much i wanted to push the body out the bed that was layin next to me.  I finally just turned on the tv and watched the news that started at 0500 since from 0400 on her alarm would go off and she'd just hit snooze on it constantly.  When she realized i was up and zoned out watchin tv she asked if i wanted a hug. (dont think she knew i had burst into tears the night before minutes after she went to bed) I said sure so she reached over to embrace me and FINALLY whispered "IM SORRY".  With that said the war was finally dissolved.  I didnt question the "what for?" i just let it be enough and entered to sequence codes to diffuse the nuclear warhead pointed at her side of the bed.  She eventually left for work and i went about my day of sittin here catnappin watchin sesame street wit the kids.  Phone rang from my job lead several times updatin me on the status of things.  The letter from the the corrections center was re-written so now its GOLD per the lead.  So thats back in play, got the other from my PTA boss so thats 2 outta 3.  He called a 3rd and they didnt even remember me! niiiice.  but he had the 4th so i called ahead to assure all would be kosher but my main boss wasnt in so i talked to the owner who did remember me and was very supportive in doin whatever needed to be done so thats bein worked on as i type this installment for the day and havin that complete by the end of today makes it so we dont have to wait on the 5th who dont get back till monday (was initally the 3rd but im tryin to get this done NOW vs waitin)  Wifey also txt to advise (yeah since the im sorry the communication has steam rolled) that she was gettin a raise in her wages so i let my job lead know that as well.  Watched my political shows live sine there was nothin better to do.  Ate at the dining room table as a family again finally since the inlaw went back home for the weekend (as every weekend).  Then got down to a good long game of Civilization that lasted till 5am! lol oh it was alooong and good! conquered the world and ended up nukin one country into submission! Went to be thereafter smilin wit the news that Obama/Biden was the ticket!

 

Saturday- Woke up round 10am, wifey was wantn to go to her annual company picnic.  I thought it was too early for me since i dont really know'em and frankly bein unemployed i have nooooot much to report other than sittin on my arse and tryin to find one.  I tell her ill meet her there so they take off and i stay behind to watch Obama and Biden do their 1st speech together in Illinois.  Was an awesome speech and man Biden is gonna be Obama's pitbull i can see it already.  Shaved my head and trimmed up and showered and got ready to go a lil after noon time.  Headed up Meridian and stopped at Schucks to get a JumpStart box since the truck's battery was still dead when i got ready to leave and frankly im tired of jumpin it off my pickup.  Went to cartoys to get an amp wire as i had moved the box in my trunk but they didnt sell on a spool anymore so went across the street to Cartunz and bought it there and re-wired in their parking lot.  From there headed up to Edgewood where they were havin the picnic and when i got there ti was juuuust wrappin up lol oops! fashionably late.  Hung out for a few minutes to make my presence known then got back in the truck to leave.  Wifey headed home and i headed north to Seattle as i wanted to surprise her wit some philly cheesesteaks from the joint in seattle we get'em from (23rd/union).  I had looked up the night before on Barackobama.com where the Washington headquarters was (1610 Mercer St, Seattle) so punched that up on my blackberry using mapquest.com (cant use gps in trailblazer while still in movement) and headed there.  I was a lil stunned at the location chosen, its in a building set to be demolished in some obscure part of town if you ask me.  Headquarters for all demo's as they had stuff for obama, gregoire, and the guy for land commissioner.  i went seeking the new obama/biden rally signs but they didnt have any new stuff yet buttones of shirts, buttons and the likes of regular obama stuff.  I grabbed their business card and a Gregoire sign.   Was gonna get a Darcy Burner sign but they only had a yard sign for sale and i was there for free stuff unless it was obama stuff i grab some stuff here and there for the souvenir value later on in life.  Left there and went on up to 23rd/union only to find the cheesesteak joint closed up abandoned, graffiti tagged and possible drug deal in progress on the side of the building.  I was disappointed.  snapped a pic of what once was and headed back to the freeway.  Stopped on by tha Cane to check on her and hopped aboard to remove some memorabilia given to me by Lucy as well as the water and gatoraide.  Tore apart the cushions topside and in the galley seein if i could find my ring (still M.I.A.) even went down below into the engine compartment where i found even a screwdriver underneath the engine itself thats how hard i was lookin (screwdriver was there before i bought the boat so Lord knows how long its been there)  Left there wit a smile of the memories aboard her and desiring to take her out and went to my parents to check up on the house and drop off some hot sauce i bought for my dad to try since he's a spice fan.  From there headed back to Federal Way area lookin for the other Cheesesteak joint Mapquest said existed but of course that place was closed for the day and to top it off it was an teriyaki joint as well so that tells you it aint authentic.  Abandoned the cause and went to 312th/pac to get my teriyaki from our main joint and headed on home.  Me and wifey started a Star Wars marathon (her request to my surprise) and enjoyed the rest of the evening. Watching episode 1, 2 then upstairs to watch special edition political shows about the days events.

 

Sunday- Sunday was a pretty quiet low key day.  Wife was still crampin as a result of miscarriage but bleeding has stopped so we just stayed home.  Freakin in-law was comin back anyway so not like we could do much (alone as a family).  Watched some tv wit wife and chopped it up wit my girl lil momma bantering back and forth.  Got on the topic of exercise and discussin gettin in shape and she was gettin rid of a treadmill so i asked to put it on loan till i leave for work.  She agreed so i showered up and folded down the seats in the trailbazer and headed up north to pick it up.  Checked on tha Cane first and realized i left my hand truck at home in a rush to get there and back.  So stopped by my parents to borrow theirs then over to lil momma's come to find out i didnt even freakin need it at all!  Got it down the stairs and loaded and back home to watch some tv and finished Obama's first book (VERY good).

 

Monday- So i expected to hear back f/my job lead to get papers signed and get this thing solidified but you know my life.  That'd be too easy right?  Time is goin by and im talkin to my sister about her situation too and her followin up on her job leads.  I call mine and sure as the sun shines somethin was goin wrong.  The job was tryin to FINANCIALLY disqualify me sayin they're concerned about financial hardship if i was hired.  Im thinkin in my head aint this some ish?!  Im tryin to GET  job to pay OFF debt but they wanna clown and prevent me from bein able to pay?!  I make less than what they'd pay on unemp and i get by so why wouldnt i be able to if hired?!  He told me he was still in contact with the grumpy admin lady who had waved me off in week 27's friday segment tryin to play wit the numbers and make somethin happen.  So i told'em to keep me in the loop.  Time passed and i played a few rounds of Civilization while uploadin my DVD movies to my ipod (got a software that allows me to upload DVD's i own onto my ipod).  Wifey came home so i got ready to leave for my church trustee mtg.  While i was out i thought hey im gonna do a face to face wit this job and see what the deal is cause of all things i cant let debt be my downfall not after all we've been through.  So i get there and they doin a bunch of nothin but familiar wit me bein in/out all the time so went in and chopped it up for a few minutes.  He took me in a back room and said bottom line basically is doin a debt consolidation or payin off a couple balances to knockout the outgoing monthly expenses. Told'em i'd work on it 1st thing tmrw.  Went up to the church for the mtg then back home to watch my msnbc shows shower and shave and bed for an interview i thought i had the following day.

 

Tuesday- Up a lil early since went to bed early the night before.  Watched a lil news, processed another movie and got the kids fed dressed and out the door in a timely manner.  Didnt have the address where the interview was and had been tryin to contact the guy to get the address but kept gettin the voicemail.  Tried other contacts and got their voicemails.  Tried their HR number i googled while on the freeway and even their vm!  Must've been a sign.  I get off 277th from sr 167 and right at Auburn Way intersection he finally picks up and tells me the interview is not friday not today! NICCCCCE!  So i double back on Auburn Way to 15th then onto the freeway stoppin by wifey's job for a few minutes to say hey.  Stop to get some $3.87/gallon gas on south hill then home.  Got online and applied for a home eq loan and watched some tv while i waited.  Time passed and my job contact called to discuss the amt i had wrote down for my wife's income that started this whole me.  He asked if that was per month?  Then it clicked on me, i wrote down one of checks as per month vs every other week! lol  So he immediately called up to his boss and they told'em had they known that this wouldve never been an issue so he immediately came down to my house to have me refill out a financial statement.  Offered'em a coke and he went back up to process the rest of the paperwork and hopefully get officially signed on.  Consulted back and forth with the bank tryin to get this loan approved.  Played a lil Civilization and got my A** handed to me lol succcked.  When wifey came home we ate at the dining room table.  We had McDonalds and were laughin and socializin and she was wearin a low-cut spaghetti string tanktop.  Now wit her DDD's (swole bigger when she was prego so i tease her about obtaining 1 D per child lol) you know there was serious cleavage showin.  So what i do? from across the dining room table i take perfect aim while she wasnt lookin and fired off a shot with a fry that landed directly perfectly into her cleavage lol. Her mom, even the kids were laughin it was hilarious!  Watched some tv wit wifey uploadin more movies to my ipod then decided to start tacklin the running portion of my work out regiment.  I ended up doin 1 full mile at 6mph in 10min.  But my goal needs to be 1.5mi in 12min so at that pace i have to cut my mile run by 2min to be on pace.  Thats gonna take me some time i aint ran a mile that quick since 9th grade and on top of that i nearly fell off the treadmill 2x runnin that fast hahaahah the only runnin i do is a quick sprint or joggin in place on wiifit (which ill admit that joggin in place for 10min really did help set me up for success runnin that mile) sweatin like they just oiled me up for a photo shoot ran up to take a shower, watched my politicat shows, read a lil and off to bed after 2am

 

Wednesday- Woke up round 8ish got the kids fed and bathed.  Checked the progress of my movie uploads come to find out... it hadnt been recordin sound all this time! UGH!  So started the process allll over again wit movies i had been doin the past couple days.  Watched sesame street wit my kids since there were no tivo'd shows that needed to be watched.  Talked to the bank i was tryin to get consolidation loan f/and they advised they were gonna try to push it through wit the assumption i get the 13wk emergency unemployment extention.  So i call them to see whats up and he tells me he got my app on the 2nd but it hadnt been processed yet. ugh freakin great.  Talked to one of my friends Chris who was tellin me how her sister defrauded her outta 6 c-notes.  Felt bad for her since she needed that money for rent and nothin i could do to help.  Switched to a round of Civilization for a bit and got a lil somewhere when the phone rang.  Was my job lead askin if i could come down.  I asked if it was a problem if my kids came with me since wifey wasnt home yet. Asked what was it pertaining to he said he wanted me to fill out a statement expressing there will be no financial struggles in my absence.  So i go up there and write out a nice statement tellin'em my wife is fully supporting my move as is my family and there wont be a financial burden and yada yada.  The whole time im thinkin in my head, "what the hell you think is gonna happen if i DONT join?!" Got it all spit shined and they faxed it off for approval AFTER it was read on the phone to 2 different superiors.  Went home freakin hungry but knew i still had to run so jumped on the treadmill and up'd my spek to 7mph and nearly died lol did 4min runnin walked for 2min up to 6mph for 3 and up down like that till 13min was up and that got me 1.1miles.  So .4miles need which means less walkin and at least a jog speed or very fast walk.  Went up and showered got my food and ate.  In-law showed up who had been out doin Lord knows what wit her husband that showed up from Vancouver.  Finished watchin political shows and went downstairs to watch tv and who was downstairs but my inlaw SLEEP.  I was like oh heck naw.  Went back upstairs PISSED, finished readin my job manual of what to expect in the job did some pushups and crunches and off to bed.

 

Thursday- was soooooo tired wakin up.  Got the kids fed and watched a lil tv processed a few movies.  Heard the recycle truck so scrambled to get all the recycle in the bin and out to front of the street.  Talked to my gurl lil momma for most of the day to the point that my phone died several times and had to go get another phone off the charger and recharge the other.  Watched CNN and a lil MSNBC discussin politics, olympics, even did some history via wikipedia on prussia, persia, even zaire.  Even learned a lil about World War 2 that i didnt know!  Talked and talked and talked before finally gettin off the phone upwards of 4-5hrs later, called my job lead to see what i could find out.  Got nothin as far as determination at the moment.  Heard back from the bank as well they declined to approve the app cause they need proof of employment i cant use the unemp. Was bout to play another game of Civilization when the phone rang.  Job lead up the street wanted me to come in aaaaagain.  So i get the kids ready and head on up there.  They wanna get further info on my 3 references so they could go have them fill out the reference sheet.  I gave'em all they needed and made the calls to let'em know my job lead was comin to talk to'em.  Head out and stop at Jack in the Box for a shake and get home for dinner wit the fam.  play 2 games of pool wit wifey where i mopped the floor wit'er lol.  Got to thinkin.. sheesh i havent even played a game of pool since Marcus was born!  We go our separate ways and end up gettin into an argument wit her after she has the audacity to claim Tamia's bad behavior is "partially my fault because i dont take her out to play"  I was PISSED and didnt talk to her the rest of the night.  The nerve taking into question my parenting?!  Do you see ME goin out and doin anything?! Im just as couped up, she wants to go out and play theres a backyard out there go for it.  But dont call into question my parenting justifying her bad behavior.  I take that energy and head to the treadmill to run it out, up to shower, down to watch some tv and get my game ov Civil on before upstairs to watch Big Brother and my political shows then bed for interview the next day.

 

Friday- Lil tossin and turnin all night cause of the heat, had 2 fans on cause our room was so hot out of all the other rooms in the house.  Got the kids showered and fed then headed up to lil momma's house to drop off my kids.  My parents and sister all flew out at 0600 to Mississippi so my babysitter options have all been exhausted.  Even Cake was at work! In-law in Vancouver now, so got my back against a wall!  Got there and dropped'em off and headed north to Seattle, got parked in a parking garage off 5th & Jefferson and man walkin on the hill westward the momentum carried me in a 1/2 jog lol.  Called that job contact askin specifics on the job location cause btwn inital testing and today's interview thats 3 different buildings!  I end up joggin in my suit & tie (and ya'll know how hot it was today!) from 5th av to 3rd av 1/2 due to momentum of the hill in dress shoes the other 1/2 tryin to assure im there on time lol  Get there and as im waiting my job lead from down south calls and tells me i need to call the lady who was grumpy last friday she has questions.  So I call her immediately (yes while im waitin in the lobby of the other job to interview lol) She asks me what ive been doin all this time i tell her i have been interviewing etc nothings panned out, she asks what happened at the corrections center i tell her it was violation of their SOP handlin calls but as unemployment determined there was zero misconduct in my actions.  She asked how i knew my references and i told her and that was that.  minutes after i was done they called me in to interview.  That was in/out just answerin a few questions about basically why are you the one for this job, what experience do you have that will make you best, how would you handle this/that situation.  Done, out, got fingerprinted while talkin to a guy waitin in the lobby for some reason.  elderly black male was a pretty funny dude tellin me he just got back from vegas sit some of his friends w/out the wives.  I asked'em did he catch any shows he told me saw Kool and the gang but was mostly a trip of exhibitionism not exhibits (referrin to seein girls shows and bein naughty) i cracked up laughin like you dirty ol man! i like your style! i told'em what happens in vegas stays in vegas!  They called me in to get fingerprinted so i shook his hand and took off, got that done and headed UP the hill i had to jog down.  Got back to kent finally and swooped up my kids (thank lil momma!) came on home to do some laundry and relax a lil.  Checked the mail and got approved for the emergency 13wk extention of unemp.  So ill be stackin that money up as savings and keepin things paid.  Watched some tv and played a looooong game of Civilization where i beat the game so bad it actually TOLD me "the game will end in the next 5 turns" lol  you've played looong enough buddy.  Ended up wit a slight headache but still had to watch my political shows upstairs so turned on the fan and watched some shows while havin a very lengthy intense convo wit lil momma.  Seems our convos always get pretty indepth and intense! Im always game for a good intelligent convo!  Ended up goin to bed after 4 in the morning!

 

Saturday- Was crashed in the bed exhausted!  But wifey had a hair appt so had to get up.  Had a loooot of pin'd up sexual tension and energy i need to defuse so rolled outta bed and went straight to the treadmill since i didnt run the day before and went straight 6mph for 8min and 7mph for 2min for a full mile then backed it down to a walk the last couple minutes to end with 1.2miles in 13min.  still .3miles short of goal but definite progress.  And bein theres no gettin booty at work where im goin i guess thats a good thing to run wit built up sexual tension, gives you that burst of nitro needed lol.  Went upstairs to shower as this runnin in this heat is unbearable felt as if i was gonna pass out.  Laid down for a hot second then downstairs to watch the USA Basketball team spank Spain.  Watched some tivo'd shows and movies, a lil laundry and cat napped a lil till 5pm when the MSNBC forum came on with Obama and McCain.  Was pretty good hearin both of'em speak although i dont recall much of McCain speakin on his religious beliefs and it was a religious forum.  Wife left to go to some party so hung wit the kids a lil more before off to the drive-in.  She already in a jackass attitude mode for bein asked to be home early so we could go to the drive-in so as a result now im in a mood.  We get to the drive-in and lookin over at screen 4 was shocked to see it was like somethin out of "I Am Legend"  The grounds were overgrown wit tall grass and the screen in shambles, it was CRAZY.  We watch Mirror which i thought was pretty lame.  Battery in the truck died 5min prior to the movie bein over!  Must be absolutely fried.  So got jumped off by their jumpbox.  In between movies a truck pulls up to the side of us with what i assume are husband and wife.  They not even there 5min before theyre in a full on DV which i thought i heard a smack.  Cussin wit the woman bein the Agressor complaining about Lord knows what.  They end up pullin off WITH cord still attached to their antenna and drive out.  Nice waste of $16. When the 2nd movie was startin apparently wifey in her scan readin ignorance thought it was The Dark Knight that was playing next.  So when she sees that its Hancock and goes into a fullblown hissy fit.  I tell her it aint my fault she ws 1/2 readin her messages, shes all like she dont wanna see this movie i told her i just suffered through her poor choice now shes gonna suffer through mine.  And that was exactly what happened.  I enjoyed hancock while she sighed and tossed and turned and Marcus awake crawled all over her and me in the front seats before finally goin to sleep.  I cranked up the truck 1/2 way through the movie to assure it wouldnt die again. And when the movie was OVER (cause you know im gonna get my $$'s worth) We take off and go check on tha Cane then to my parents house then home.  Soon as we get home (0130) wife changes her clothes and promptly leaves.  I dont question it i jump in the shower cause i already know where shes headed.  Back to the party, selfish a**.  I go to sleep as the thunderstorms start and wake round 0330 when they were peaking.  She still aint in the house as i did a full round to see if she was on the couch.  I go back upstairs and call her cell to find she was in the garage for whatever reason.  I just hang up on her and go back to bed.  Within minutes the storm was over the house and with one big flash and loud crack the power cuts out and resets.  NOW shes all on my jock askin "should i close the window?" actin all timid.  I tell her no its juuuuuust fine thinkin in my head at this point you can go outside and stand at the school's flag pole for all i care.  And back to sleep i went

Sunday- Well wifey had taken Tamia's hair down so she was runnin around the house for days lookin like Buckwheat so couldnt take her no where including church so we just stayed home.  Did a lil cleanin around the house and watchin some tv.  Watered the garden a bit and got back to studyin as i do daily now.  Reached out to a friend of mine and apologized for some of my hostilities from last week in the midst of goin throughthe miscarriage but got no reply so guess that friendship is over.  Too bad cause i was really fond of'em and had voiced such over time.  Eventually the in-laws showed up.  ugh.  it is said the Lord dont give you more than you can bear right?  yeah well enough of the dogpilin on please!  I kept my head down past the formalities and kept studyin.  Eventually retreated upstairs to shower only to find my mother in law in our room talkin to Kelitha like its the 2nd family room or some ish.  Yeah we gonna have problems.  I fire up the shower for the "get the hint, GET OUT" insinuation which she did get.  Shower up and pray to the Lord that he help me through this "x" amount of time shes gonna be in our house.  Step out dryin off goin to get my boxers and t-shirt on and she comes back in while im still in my towel!!!!!!! sonofa....!!!  I started to just drop towel right there full exposure, but im sure itd backfire.  Bein the only dick in the house could have unwarranted consequences. ewwwwwwwwwwwww. Watched Big Brother wit wifey and a youtube video on the career path im currently studyin to be.  Did 50 situps timed to assure i could do'em as required. Downstairs to finish more laundry and watch some tv ended up fallin asleep.

 

Monday- Woke up to the excessive rustling of wifey gettin ready to head back to work after bein off all last week.  Stomach was botherin me a bit but eventually got back to sleep.  got up to feed the kids to find english muffin crumbs on the counter.  grumblin to myself as i already know who did the s**t i text Kelitha for confirmation only to be confirmed yeeeees it was the in-law.  Clean it up and go back upstairs to watch some shows recorded last night.  Blackberry went off to get an email of a rejection notice from a job in olympia i was chose over for "others more qualified".  Got a call a lil later from a guy i had talked to last week askin if i was gonna come down and holla at'em.  Told'em no can do wifey wasnt havin it movin to Cali no exceptions before he could counter with another sentence i said "but thanks for the phone call!" we disconnected.  Was gonna do another 50 situps but that ish after 10 felt like i had pulled somethin lol so i said ixney on the situpey and did the 42 pushups required.  Came downstairs after noon to feed the kids and watch some shows downstairs.  Emailed the guy i had went and talked to last thursday to see what was up wit the processing so i can go test.  Dont want all this studyin to go to waste the longer its postponed.  Talkin to a friend of mine about weight loss and them mentioning losin their by goin for walks i got motivated to go for a walk to pay for my water bill around the corner!  So shut er thang down got the kids appropriately clothed and attached my pedometer and went for a lil power walk.  Clockin it from my house roundtrip was 1mile exactly, 2200 steps, 85 calories burned and about 20min roundtrip.  What i liked most about it is theres a Walgreens btwn the water company and my house so if i ever need a pitstop i can walk right in!  Gettin myself fit though im gonna clock it so i get 1.5 miles in less than 13min as gonna be required.  Later on in the nyte (literally) i get a call from a close friend of mine Jus Blaze whos in absolute distraught tears.  I ask her whats wrong and she tells me shes been in a DV wit her husband.  She was cryin so hard 1st thing im thinkin is am i gonna need my gun to hurt this (expletive). im already feelin down cause i tried to reach out to my friend Lucy again but shes truly ignorin me for good i guess which really stings so in a mental applyin that love to another friendship to make up for the lack of another i reach out to her and get further info on whats goin on.  I agree to meet her 1/2 way in kent to talk so head out and while waitin on her i checked on tha cane then stopped at winco to pick up some coke and dr pepper.  Stopped at Kent Station and soon as i got there and got out and burst into tears.  I felt so bad for her.  She cried and talked about the situation which has been a long time comin.  Talk and talk and she cries some more and all i could do was hug her and let her cry.  Eventually parking lot secure came and advised the lot was closed and as he was there kent pd came on their patrol.  We parted ways and told her to call me the following day.

 

Tuesday- Pretty mellow day actually.  Stayed in house for the most part watchin tv looked at a couple newsweek mags.  Had one of those lil wild hairs that inspired me to play a ps3 game i bought a month ago after discussin it wit Lucy at what would be our final Best Buy outing.  The game was Civilization, i've been playin since it 1st came out in the 90's on 3.5" hard disks!  Loved it, bought it again in 2003? on cd-rom for my laptop to play at the Corrections Center and now bought for ps3 but didnt wanna play it cause didnt want to sit here all day playin video games when i should be findin a job, and even then when not findin a job spendin time wit my kids or most recently studyin.  But i need a break, just a quick one to have "me" time.  So hooked that bad boy up and conquered the world i was so happy lol.  Kids were asleep so i went upstairs and watched some of my political shows until wifey showed up.  Talkin to her for a few the only lead i have called me and asked if i could come test the following day at 2pm.  I agreed and told'em i'd be there at 1pm to hitch a ride with others up to Seattle to test.  Finished my shows did a library run to take back some of Tamias books and tried to re-check out one of Kelitha's books but my library card didnt work! I hadnt used it in so long they deactivated it lol wish they'd do the same wit credit cards it'd make the temptation of usin'em less great.  Came back home and got into a cram session till 1am, shaved my head trimmed the goatee and off to bed after some pushups.  Situps i decided to opt out on till i truly needed to do'em cause the pain was still great in my abs that i didnt wanna be too sore to do'em when it really counted that wouldnt be good.

 

Wednesday-  Of to a slow start stayed in bed till 10ish up watched some tv waitin till noon till wifey came home so i could leave to go meet the carpool to Seattle.  did a lil crash course studyin again to assure i had all formulas and stuff down.  Got there a couple minutes late thanx to that Meridian mess.  Got some more paperwork done and had to REDO some of the papers just cause i wrote it in blue ink! BLUE! they need it done in black so as he was doin some other papers i resigned what i needed to and informed wifey to come up as she was goin to get her mom and sign off on her's again and leave wit the recruiters.  We head out wit another dude and his possible recruit and mob on up to Seattle... more of South Seattle in the industrial area off of 1st av i believe just over the bridge.  Me and the other dude were in the backseat sparkin up convo and what was on our minds and ish and crackin jokes (which unknown to us till a lil into it the recruiters had been listenin and chimin in at times wit their own input) lol so we had a mutual 4-way convo at times when we couldnt keep it btwn us 2.  Anyways, we get there and go through screening and get back to the waiting area where we sit and wait to begin our test.  He gets called in before me cause he was scheduled, my recruiter is fast trackin me so i was a walk-in tester.  I go in probably 15min later after usin the bathroom to assure my nerves didnt get the best of me.  I go in the room and say a short eyes closed prayer that the Lord would let me pass this test with flying colors and without incident. Then i get to it.  Heavy on the grind blowing through the 10 sections applyin the skills i had learned over the last week.  there were others in the room as its a central hub for all agencies to bring their recruits for testing.  But its timed and at you own pace not a universal timer.  When i was done I got the proctor who got me processed to be dismissed and printed out my scores.  But before i could even ask to see'em she had put the sheet in an envelope, licked it shut, signed her name on the outer flap, then scotch taped it shut.  A seal that if torn open would void the results.  I had this ear to ear grin on my face and she looked at me puzzled cause i wanted to know so bad what i got but she had sealed it like a college transcript!  I tell her thank you and walk out the door to find the recruiter. 

 

Upon findin'em he tears it open and looks at me damn near in shock.  I look at him and say What?  He scoffs and i ask is that bad? he says naw, you OVER qualified! hahahaha I had scored a 79 on my ASVAB test! i only needed a 31 to pass (its not a percentage its a point system).  theres 8 rankings possible.  1, 2, 3a, 3b, 4a, 4b, 4c, 5. 1 (outstanding) the best, 5 the worst (not trainable).  i scored in category 2 (excellent)!!!!!  (a 31 is cat 3b, average)  I was floored and so filled with joy!  I asked'em if i could have a copy of the test and he was mildly hesitant i guess for gov't property reasons but i didnt mind i was gonna get my official numbers one way or another.  So when we got back in the car i strategically chose to sit in the backseat.  once he was distracted in convo i asked to see my asvab results again and copied down my #'s in my "asvab for dummies" book that i had been studyin in (which obviously i will 100% vouch that book MORE than paid for itself)  So i could later reference those numbers to divulge which jobs i can not apply for as a career knowing the point system formula.  We b.s.'s the whole way back and the recruiter told us some of his stories of travelin abroad and seein the world.  Got back finally and did MORE paperwork that he found was in blue ink.  Asked me if i wanted to do the urinalysis now or tmrw i told'em now was fine.

 

I take the cup and the poor instructions he gave me and go piss in the cup. Come back he gives me a 3 strip indicatior that smaller than a prego test and has 3 strips that hang out the bottom yet have 3 indicators in the middle like a prego test where the lines appear.  He tells me to tip the strips in the piss but dont let the indicator itself touch the piss.  Poor instructions given i take it back to the bathroom and submerge the strips in the piss till it absorbed enough to soak in the indicator and reveal the result.  I go back up front and hand the recruit the indicator (wit the cap back on the indicator no longer exposin the pee soaked strips) He then gives it to the Chief and he looks at me sternly and asks "When's the last time you used?" I glared at him and told him "I never used in my LIFE" (true story, never even smoked)  He's still starin at me and im starin at'em back like, dude we can get into some gangsta s**t right now if you want but i aint gonna have a faulty test lyin on me bout to make me lose ANOTHER job.  He tells the recruiter to get me another test and retake it.  They reinstruct me this time properly tellin me dont submerge the whole strip just a minute porttion and dont like the indicatior touch the sides or the piss.  I go back and redo it appropriately till it absorbed the piss up the indicator and return to their amusement the other test had reset his finally findings to show i had indeed been negative of drug use as the 2nd indicator had confirmed.  Hey they allll gotta chuckle outta that one but i was NOT amused.

 

I finish up the final papers there cause i wasnt tryin to take it home and do it i got other ish i wanna do and it was 8pm before i finally left there. They were tryin to continue the fast track to get me the physical tomorrow but that didnt work out so they wanted to return at 4pm tmrw so they can take me up to Seattle and post me up in a hotel for the night so come 1st thing friday morning i can get my physical and talk to the career counselor bout what i wanna do (now that i know my options are endless!) :)  The Chief (now bein nice to me lol) told me the rundown of what to expect, what to eat and what not to eat, what to do in the hotel, and what not to do cause they'd be lookin for any reason to medically disqualify you so basically be still, relax watch some tv and stay outta trouble!  Came home and told wifey the rundown of my awesome blessings and where we go from here, that i could possible be outta town by the end of this month gettin trained.

 

Thursday- Started out pretty slow.  Lounged as long as i could bein a slacker knowin i needed to pack and get ready to head up to my job contact.  Decided to mow the lawn on an impulse and then give my dad a call as me and my sister were goin back and forth about the accuracies of the story behind my my parents endin up here in washington in the mid 70's and if they'd lived anywhere else prior.  Was a very pleasant phone call that lasted 1hr 40min!  He was very supportive of my move just long as wifey was ok with it.  (which she is, shes already relishing in her new title and takes pride in the bragging lol)  Well i eventually get on the good foot and get allll packed and leave up out the house to meet my job dude.  We sit there and chop it up for a couple hours before even leaving which was aight but kinda sucked.  Had to redo MORE paperwork which sucked sooooo bad.  Talked to the Chief who gave me the heads up of what to expect goin up there on friday and what to expect that night at the hotel.  I was "thinkin" i was gonna be by myself so im thinkin whatever yo just stick to my own get sleep and up early in the a.m. to get'er done.  Yeah noooooot happenin.  I get there after 7ish and get checked in at the Clarion Hotel in seatac across from the airport.  Find my room 130 on the bottom floor and its a avg economy room 2 full size beds and i see stuff moved on one so i then know i have a roommate.  DANG IT! My mom had wanted me to call her so i figured let me get this over wit.  I call and get my dad again so i chop it up wit him and let'em know im posted up in the hotel to do my physical the following morning which i think truly sealed it in his mind that was was dead serious about what i was doin.  He congratulated me and i know he was proud cause im followin in his footsteps.  He handed over the phone to my mom who started on me aaaaaagain.  I blow it off cause when the sun sets aint nobody keepin food on my table, clothes on my kids back and roof over our head.  Im gonna do what i need to do to forward the advancement of life for my wife and kids.  Eventually she changed tactic and moved from dont do it to, aim high and dont settle for anything to which i rejected and shot down again.  I told her look, im not gonna walk up in there playin chicken wit the people "gimme what i want or i walk" what they are doin for me now is already more then they're even obligated to do and im good wit that.  Im just a body to them thats easily replaced by the next so dont come in my ear wit the "demand what you want" i been outta work for 7 months i aint lettin the rhetoric ruin this one for me.  She lecturing and lecturin so i ask her when has she ever known me to get in a situation which i got screwed or somethin pulled over on me.  I told her you remember im the one that told you to come on lets spend $40 to drive to oregon (gas was cheaper then) to get her tv and save over $400.  I told her also do you forget what happened in Vegas wit those monorail tickets? to which she got a huge chuckle and conceded that yes that was a good one there.  I told her exactly i dont get hustled i HUSTLE!.  I eventally tell her i gotta go cause it was now 830 and i hadnt eaten.  I return to the room to find my roommate had went to bed so i didnt bother'em.  But i was restless so i return back outside and call wifey and talk to her while doin a lap around the hotel bldg.  Go back inside and shower and get ready for the following day takin out allll my piercings. :( lobes, cartilage, and nose all out. Layin down got a call from my frient Jus Blaze who was passin by and wanted to say hi so i was like fiiine got re-dressed and waited outside since i had a roommate.  Waited for'em while they were lost all up inside the seatac airport ramps and ish thanx to a wrong turn.  Finally showin up we sat and talked for awhile gettin updates on the current situation and also what the heck i was doin at a hotel.  We part ways and i go back in and toss and turn cause my roommate is tossin too much makin noise and the a/c was too freakin loud. 

 

Friday- Come 2am its like the stupid thing ran outta oil cause it let out the worse noise so we just shut it off.  440 finally came around and his alarm went off so i said f it im up.  He manned the bathroom first so i just got dressed and took 2nd crack.  formally introduced and gave a lil background.  Chatted till we got to the continental breakfast where we broke our separate ways.  I ate lite and focused on the career path sheet i had printed out.  540 eventually came and we loaded on the bus to head back north to south seattle off east marginal way.  while ridin i was sittin towards the back and doin my own thang and listin to other convos when this dude piped up in their convo and proudly proclaimed "i aint even gonna lie i used to get manicures and pedicures." me and the dude in front of me looked at each other and fell out laughin i told'em i aint even gonna turn around cause i dont think i eeeeven wanna know who said that.  which i already know who said it. mr. homothug. that aint even metrosexual lol.  We file out the bus and get the formalies started inside the federal building.  A LOT of paper signin and goin through is page by page word by word.  They were explainin one of the stations us guys had to in our physical where we had to turn around, bend over and spread'em.  Well i kinda joined a crew of 3 others as a sect of wildboys in the room.  an employee had come in choppin it up wit the class as a whole overhead our convo where the jokes had turned into the doc gettin his jollies at our expense when we had to bend and spread'em.  One piped up a lil too loud after referrin your prostate bein checked (which doesnt happen in the physical but the jokes turned perverted) and said "doc thats an awfully big thumb youre puttin up there!" hahhahahahaha the employee said oh now thats just sick and wrong! i was in tears dyin laughin cause even his own comment embarrassed him after the female employee was laughin now at his expense.  The joke had morphed from the big thumb to more colorful detail of the docs hands bein on both the persons shoulders so certainly wasnt a thumb so the person askin " doc  i hope you have an assistant back there!" hahahahahaha  After the class we had to take a breathalizer and start at different sections in the room to do different qualifying things.  the hearing test, visual, blood draw, blood pressure, physical checkin the knees and flexibility weight etc., physical wit the doc where you did behind closed doors get your nuts checked wit a cough, bend over and spread'em! no pokin though! hahahahah, do your urinalysis and in the end talk to another doc who says if youre qualified or not.  From there turned in my file and went to have lunch where i interrupted an argument already in progress.  A woman in there (who i found was later married w/kids) got offended when somebody made some comment about joinin the military cause he wanted the $$.  she found offensive and said he needed to grow up.  Somehow it gravitated to cookies to which the woman lost it and was soundin off verbally berating homothug who made the comment and some others then got up stormed out.  We were all chucklin a lil about the whole thing cause the cookie thing had got blown outta proportion when another girl (there were only 2 in the room at the time) got all bent outta shape and startin soundin off talkin all shorts of s**t in ignorance.  Tellin all of us we need to grow up and when she hears a guy talkin stupid she puts'em in his place and she aint for the b.s. and wah wah wah wah wah we all pounched on her b**ch a** for that one. I spun around and glared her straight in her dumb a** face and said how old are you? she said old enough. i said apparently not, how old are you? she said 18 i said that explains it.  talkin in ignorance and dont know what you talkin about.  You DONT know me so dont sit here and make generalized statements about how men are so immature and need to grow up wah wah wah wah wah.  Im 27 got a wife and 2 kids and i aint gonna listen to s**t you gonna say on me.  she went into submission then just as she shouldve cause dont get it twisted we in a maximum security facility but you will get worked into submission chick.  Another dude talkin crazy in the head of the moment said "apparently she dont get beat enough" we all threw up our hands that we werent gonna laugh or touch that comment at ALL.  Told'em we aint wit it nor gonna touch that one.  I take that back there were 3 women in the room cause the female cook was there.  After the 2nd female left she came over after most of us were gettin us after agreein women were from another planet wit their hostilities for no reason (at times) and another was makin blah blah blah sounds and i chimed in wit the wah wah wah wah wah that we tone women out majority of the time and go wit the "yes dear" and ignore'em lol.  Clearout and go back to finish the 2nd half of my processing which took foreeeeeever.  Goin in/out of the office and waiting.  Makin phonecalls to my job lead contact, then him callin me sayin they needed stuff.  My wifeys stepdad was a the house watchin the kids so i called him and had to walk him through gettin the paystub i needed, pluggin in the fax machine and gettin the stub faxed.  well after 5 trys that wasnt happenin so the dude ended up just goin down the street to my house and pickin up the physical copy.  Im waitin and waitin as others are processin through and leavin, others bein disqualified for bein overweight or eyes werent correctable to 20/20.  Was pretty sad to watch.  Eventually time dwindles down to 3ish and some office lead woman was in there tryin to rush through my stuff while im sittin there bein short and snippy wit EVERYONE. she asked another what i had wrote in a section regarding traffic tickets and the guy was tryin to explain but wasnt doin a good job so i volunteered the short answer of "theyre speeding and parking" the woman not even lookin in my direction shook her hand in a hostile aggressive "shoo dog get outta here!" motion oh i was PISSED. just who the hell are you?! I sit back like whaaaaaaaatever.  time goes by again and i finally get to talk to a career counselor who tells me we have less than 15min to choose a career as they were still tryin to fast track me.  I didnt sign anything they just put me somewhere to keep the paper goin but come monday im gonna change it cause i was not happy wit me excelled through in such a fast pace manner.  My dude finally arrived and we headed out and chopped it up the whole way home, get home and unload all my stuff and go upstairs and spend another 20min just tryin to get my nosering back in! thats suuuuuuuuuuuucked!  Debriefed wife on the likelihood of the future and played catch up on my political shows

 

Saturday- A day of loungin and it felt good.  Went to bed late last night, nose actin up so took some nyquil which resulted in me sleepin till 1030am.   Woke to hear the tragic news about Bernie Mac passin away f/pneumona.  Pretty sad, saw him at the Kings of comedy concert @Key Arena in 2000.  Watched a lot of tv and relaxed in/out of sleep all day.

Sunday- Started out immediately rough and only got worse.  Sunday a.m. wifey advised me she was crampin pretty bad.  I opted to stay home with her and not go to church to monitor how she was feeling.  It only got worse as the day went on.  She had been bleeding slightly since the day before but not bad that we felt a need to call anyone.  Later in the day she calls me upstairs and advised she needed to go to the hospital.  She was in the bathroom sitting down and showed me the pad.... the pad that very well right there contained our child.  a HUGE amount of blood and what could have been clots or tissue.  We got the kids together and I'm initally thinkin we just goin up the street to Good Sam.  She advised me she wanted to go to Valley Medical, the place where we had our other 2 kids (and a D&C of our 1st miscarried child).  I call up my parents and advised them i was gonna drop off the kids with them as I take her to the hospital.  She asked me how i felt and i told her coldly that i felt nothing that i didnt want to deal with it.  Im angry because i dont understand why this is happening and im already stressed as is and i just dont wanna deal with it.  She bursts into tears.  We get to my parents house and my mom is standing at the door waitin for us to pull up.  I unload the kids and my mom approaches the car to give kelitha a hug as she was still sittin in the car and she falls into tears again.  My mom takes the kids in the house and we continue on to the hospital gettin to the ER in the midst of all their construction.  They have valet parking outside the door that i wasnt aware was free i thought we'd have to pay and tip so i asked the dude if i could leave the car over to the side while i unloaded my wife.  He agreed so i go inside get a wheelchair and come out load her aboard and go back inside the ER to a ridiculously long line.  Minutes pass and the line that is probably 7-8 deep with people fully standing looking inconvienced vs in need of urgent care im the only one with someone physically looking ill and in a wheelchair.  Several more minutes pass and the valet dude comes in and surveys the room wit me standing right in front of his dumb a**.  He goes over to the security guard sittin behind the surveilance desk.  A minute later he announces, "Is there an owner of a silver subaru in here?"  Me knowing whats goin on i ask silver or gold?  He swivels the monitor around and i advise him its mine and its gold.  I tell him the dude that just walked in bein a prick had notice that i was leavin the car there while bringin her into the ER and that i had personal effects still in there i needed to get out (my planner and Obama book).  He tells me he can have the guy valet park it for me and that he'll have'em leave it there till i can come back out.  I thank him cause if the other dude came back i'd f**k'em up on site.  Kelitha is nearly passing out in the wheelchair im holdin her head up.  line maybe only moved 3 people.  Another bystander waiting sees us in line and sensing Kelitha is not in good shape asks if shes ok and i tell her the situation.  She goes to the front and tells the lady that theres someone else in line in more critical need.  The triage lady finally comes from f**kin around behind the desk and sees her condition and takes us immediately into the back to start the processing of paperwork, cause you know no money no help.  They get us into an ER room finally and i help her change into the robe.  Nurses come and start an IV drip and taking her stats.  Havin her settled, i finally emerge from the room to go deal wit the car situation and see my mom, sister and 1 of my nephews in the waiting area.  I debrief them that the doc hadnt been in yet but id tell'em what id know when i found out.  I go out ready to get in that a** wit the valet as the car is not where i left it.  I spot it a few car links away and TELL him to open it.  I get my ish and walk away back in the ER. Time goes by, several RN's come in doin different things.  We befriended a RN that was actually from Tupelo, MS and had family she was stayin with in Puyallup.  Small world! I tell her my parents were both from MS and we lived in Puyallup.  Doc comes in and starts doin a brief pelvic exam.  He advises that it did seem her body was attempting to abort the pregnancy but that it may not have succeeded.  He scheduled an ultrasound so they wheeled her into the room.  They ask her to drain her bladder so we walk her across the hall where she had to give a sample.  I went in with her and helped her and was saddened as the cup was 90% red.  I held her IV bag and specimen while she tried to clean the blood that had flown to her thighs and dripped to the floor.  Heartbreaking.  I helped her clean the floor and we walked back to the room and saw the blood that had dropped on her ER bed.  We started the ultrasound as the woman did a stomach ultrasound and then a vaginal probe ultrasound.  After the woman was done and walked away to clean the probe i look over to Kelitha and make a silent joking crack about the probe and the length and girth of it and made sexual jab movements.  she whispered "yeah i liked it!" we both chuckle then go stern face when the woman comes from around the curtain.  We wheel her back into the room to await results.  After awhile one RN emerges and says we're takin her to a CT scan now.  We think thats pretty extreme and in my head all im thinkin is $$$$$$$$$$. ugh.  We wheel her into the room and within a minute they're like, "uh... we dont have an order for a CT scan so we're takin her back"  so they wheel her BACK into her room.  Im gettin irritated now so i tell her to hit her nurse button.  ANOTHER RN comes and i advise'em the situation that just occured and ask whats the deal cause i dont wanna sit here and we supposed to be doin somethin else.  He says he was gonna investigate and would get back to us.  We sit and wait and read our books till finally the doctor shows up and gives us results of the ultrasound.  He tells us that the bloodwork hormone levels say that she is/was 4-5 weeks pregnant but they couldnt find the pregnancy in her uterus.  So they suspect the miscarriage had already taken place or a possible ectopic pregnancy.  They tell us to make an appt for monday to be seen by her doctor.  I get her dressed as shes doped up on pain killers and we head to my parents to pickup the kids and then home.

 

Monday- In the a.m. she calls and gets the appt set up for 1pm, so we sit around the house watchin tv.  Look at some jobs and apply for one online before it was time to go.  We get there a few minutes late and go into the room finally.  I bring the camcorder in case it was a good pregnancy still.  The doc finally comes in after he was debriefing himself on her info from the ER.  He does NO exam just asked some questions and told her to come back tuesday for followup bloodwork and results on wednesday.  Nice. $$$$$$$$$.  Only think we got out of that dr appt was a big question mark.  No confirmation or affirmation of miscarriage or false alarm.  We get the kids together and head on back home.  Look at more jobs online tryin to get some kind  of grip on which way to turn as no phonecalls came that day for job leads.  End up on the computer till 3am lookin and lookin and more and more gettin pushed into a corner i didnt want to be in.

 

Tuesday- On the computer 1st thing then tv for a bit.  Pretty quiet day around the house still tryin to deal with the underlyin current of the tragedy we're goin through.  Checked the mail since no phone calls had come through and we already know, no phone ringin is a BAD thing.  Nothin in the mail but 2 unemployment envelopes and some ads.  I go back in and decide to call the one lead i had.  Let's cut to the chase i need to know whats goin on.  I call and the person i set my thank you letter to wasnt in, but the HR lady transferred me to the person in charge of the hiring process.  She tells me that the candidates had been selected out of the interviews and i was not of of them.  The letters would be goin out that day and the following day.  I tell Renton thank you and hangup.  Back once again to square one not one lead.  Was very upset that Renton didnt pay off as i had direct knowledge of their system and officers and now post interview was eliminated.  I advise wifey of the situation and that my back was officially to the wall.  The unemp envelopes advised that i have $1030.00 of payout left which gets us through mid august.  the 2nd envelope advised that under new regulations unemp can be extended to 13wks upon acceptance.  I promptly filled it out to be put in mail tmrw and went back to the computer to start fillin out info for the 11th hour career choice to be activated by force. Took a few practice tests online and felt pretty stupid since i hadnt had to use algebra since 9th grade.  Did better on the 2nd test vs the 1st.  Sat down at the dinner table with the family and discussed this 11th hr option that we now had to consider.  Im sure ill have no problem with the phone ringing now :(

 

Wednesday- Started out as a slow day but quickly went tragic.  Was downstairs watchin tv and searchin for jobs on the laptop.  The first call i got first thing was from a job lead i had applied for the nyte before.  He called to get the size-up on me and what i wanted to know about'em and if i was interested in comin down and testing etc.  I entertained until he told me their closest location was Cali.  I was like noooope not uprootin family.  Then a friend of mine txt me with a "you can still say hi you know" txt that quickly erupted into a full blown argument as tensions were already strained.  The back and forth continues until i blow up and tell her to f**k off after comparin me to her new lil love interest on some "well at least he treats me nice and makes me feel good.."  like mutha are you CRAZY?! you gonna compare me to some dude courting your like we on the same level of ranking?!  I gives a s**t on what he's doin to "make you feel good" that aint my damn JOB.  Exactly why you got ignored when expectin me to voice if you look nice constantly.  My role is FRIEND you got the compliments when i felt like givin'em but constant just wasnt happenin, not even my wife gets'em on that ratio.  So she makes a parting shot to which i reply "you'll soon find out" which was totally in a "mark my words we'll see in the future" context to which she replies with a "lol, oh Lonnie you think you can threaten me now?"  To which i promptly just deleted all messages and put the ignorance on the root of that word, IGNORE.  Got her nose so damn open bein infatuated the newness will wear off then we'll see what blemishes your new polished silver really has.  I know full well who i am.  Im an a**hole, im nice, im humble, im conceited, im giving, im greedy.  im a liar, im honest.  But you know what?  Check my f**kin tag.  I've been the same since 1981 aint nothing changed.  You all happy wit Mr. Prince charming gooooood for you.  But you know what im dealin wit while you walkin on your silver lined clouds nose wide open?  I get called upstairs by Kelitha.  She looks at me while sitting in the bathroom that we need to go back to the hospital.  Blood on her legs, blood in the water, and blood flowing down the front of the toilet.  As I help her get up we look down and see 100% without a doubt the 5wk old fetus at the bottom of the water.

 

I get the kids ready to leave and we all drive back up to Valley Medical Center's ER.  Get her a wheelchair again and with kids in tow wheel her into the ER this time w/no line and her not about to faint from blood loss.  They put in an exam room and we all wait with her.  To keep Tamia at least occupied as she failed to bring any toys to play with I teach her how to tie her shoes (criss-cross apple sauce,  under the bridge, tie it down, pinch the bowtie and loop it round, tuck it through, tie it down!) i know theres a more simpler way of instructing but when you have 2 lil kids in an ER room and a wife bleeding out you find your creative side to ease the own pain of your personal turmoil. They come in and tell her we're movin to another room so we all walk across the hall to another room that was next to the room we went in on sunday.  I instruct Tamia to keep practicing, while lettin Marcus be distracted by pushin around the doctors rolling stool.  They start her IV drip after takin 3 people just to find her veins.  When came time to do her pelvic exam since i had the kids i left the room (sunday i stayed).  I had already been in contact w/my mom who advised she was on her way so i arraigned for her to meet me to take the kids while i stayed.  Her ETA had been 20min (that she gave) so that gave me time to get the kids food (it was now a lil past noon) since i was out i called borders and barnes and noble lookin for a  book the guy recommended me to read in preps for the test.  I found at both but barnes was closer so i shot down the freeway got off sr 181 and doubled over to andover and swiped up the last copy they had.  Doubled back down 180th to Wendys and got food then back to the parking lot.  Ate and waaaaited and waaaited, text'n my mom who i guess lost her signal or somethin cause she suddenly stopped responding.  Gave up went back inside to find my mother in-law had shown up.  Did my own thing for a few min and started readin my newly purchased book when my mom comes walkin in. Niiiiice.  My in-law leaves, my mom socializes for a few minutes givin Kelitha a lot of motherly love that Kelitha was just loving i know.  She then takes off wit the kids so just me and Kelitha.  She debriefs me when everyone was finally gone as to the updates and shortly after they wheel her into the ultrasound room.  Taking pics etc I chuckle to her that her "boyfriends" back (the ultrasound stick thats long and thick like a dildo) lol  Take her back in the room give her more pain meds and wait.  They finally end up tellin us that theyve ruled out ectopic pregnancy (duh we just saw our f**kin kid in the water a couple hours ago) and no need for a d&c, just let the body finish the miscarriage process but if the bleeding becomes severe again then come back. (yeah im thinkin $$$$$$$)

 

Ultimately we get discharged and stop to get some food (Jack in the Box i HIGHLY recommend tryin their new Kona Coffee shake mmmm!) Checked on tha Cane and went and got the kids.  Got the 3rd degree from my mom as my sister had informed her of my 11th hour direction i was headed in since companies and cities were treatin me as if i was some freakin felon.  I shrug it off cause the rhetoric i get is because of fears of the current state of the economy and world but gotta do what i gotta do.  Repo man is comin soon.  We head home and try to take it easy and relax.  Kelitha's job i had applied to called and wanted to set up a phone pre-screen interview for the following day.  Checked the mail and got Renton's official "kick rocks" letter.  Its always easier knowin ahead of time, takes the sting out of when it really comes.  I literally spent the rest of the night till like 3am readin the book for the test tryin to cram as much knowledge and refreshers in as i could as the guy said the next test was monday he believed.  Yeah, crash course like a mutha!  A lot of the stuff was stuff learned in high school so once i started readin and applyin it on scratch paper it all started comin back so the worry faded.

 

Thursday-  Well, was supposed to be the day I helped the in-laws pack up and get the heck up outta dodge but since wifey aint 100% i opted to stay home and take care of her and the kids.  10am came and got the call from Kelitha's job pre-screening so ran through that quick.  Hung up with her finally and got a call from another career lead who wanted to sit down and talk to me round 2pm so i said aight id be there.  Watched a lil tv and did a lil more readin in my book before it was time to go.  Stop drop off wifey's prescription at Walgreens and get there a few minutes late.  Sit down and get to talkin to the dude and im likin what he's havin to say and id already had some background knowledge about'em since my dad worked for'em many many years go.  We start talkin about pay and incentive programs and the pay associated wit it.  im seein $$$ signs but its comin INTO my pocket not out!  Im likin the benefits, the incentive of goin back to college 100% tuition paid and even if wifey wanted to go back they got her covered too.  They ask me about my past school'n and i tell'em bout my diploma and my AA degree to which they look it up and tell me the avg person hires in at an E1 and that i can start as an E3, 2 slots higher or start as an O1!  Im like heeeeeeeeecks yeah son im all about seniority go head and send that email message seein if i can start as O1!  Talk talk talk then asks me to take a pre-qual test to see who im eligible for hire (yeah im used to those by now)  So i go back to the laptop and its timed with 4 sections. Word knowledge, Arithmetic (algebra), Paragraph knowledge (understanding the meaning of the paragraph...topic/subject), and Math knowledge (story problems).  Im doin what i do and after 20min or so the test is over (time up) it gives the results on the screen to which i write'em all down:  Word: 16, Arth: 7, Para: 8, Math: 5.  I dont remember how many questions there were in each subject but those were how many right i got.  It then gave an estimate of how many it thinks i would get right on the real test (that im studyin for) based off the ratio i got right outta the alotted amt on the test.  Result? Standard tester: 59.  My predicted score? 52!!!  If i keep studyin and truly pull off the estimated score or better i can probably get any position i want! I walk back out and he asks how i did to which i replied "we soon about to find out." (like i didnt know the avg testers score vs the standard score vs MY score.  for the record which he confirmed the avg tester walks in and scores btwn a 20-30 on the test! the different divisions in this gov't job require you to score btwn 31-40 i scored 52 which is in the "above average" catergory!") He goes and looks and comes out scoffin and says "oh yeah you passed with out a doubt! people dont come in and score that high normally its btwn 20-30 on their 1st try.  I had a guy thats been comin in for weeks now testing and re testing and finally this week he scored a 58."  I felt real good, that overnight cramming course and $18 investment totally paid off.  We talked some more and I sign some prelim documents so they could get me set up for the REAL test.  Grab up some papers and pamphlets to bring home and discuss more wit wifey.  Stopped at Safeway to grab some chinese and gizzards and was delighted to see they went back to their old method of behind the counter not buffet "by the pound" charges.  You can get the dinner trays at flat rate again.  Watched 10,000BC and Meet the browns, read the last 2 sections of my book, and typed this leg of the book of lon! 3am again, maybe i should be the one takin those "3 am phone calls" at the white house lol

 

Friday- Stayed around the house doin a bunch of nothin for the most part.  Watched some shows, kept an eye on wifey till it was time for her to go back to the dr then a hair appt so i stayed home.  Studied a lil for the test and got a letter in the mail for another south end job who wants me to come in and test on the 22nd but ill probably not do it at all.  Its a dead end i can feel it.  We'll see i may go just for somethin to do.  Later on in the evening I get to talkin to wifey about the 11th hr option and what to do.  Talked about likelyhood of stayin here in town vs havin to relocate.  We expressed that if thats what we had to do in the end so be it, that she was wifey and would go if we had to.  I told her i had always wanted her to be INdependent not DEpendent and not have to rely on me for anything or in case of tragedy and i died that she wouldnt be straining to care for our kids.  In the end we mutually found agreement that gettin a local "in the meantime" job just aint gonna cut it cause i'd end up quittin there too at some point and startin all over again doin 30yrs somewhere else.  She wanted to go back to school and i wanted to learn a new trade where im not feelin inadequate.  She then tells me that her mom will be here sunday.  Not "in town" here but HERE here.  So we end up gettin into it deep about her goin against my disagreement with her stayin here long term.  She tries to argue that thats her mom and yada yada and i told her i'd have no problem wit her stayin here if it was a SHORT term few weeks request but it aint.  Its a LONG term upwards of 3 months and even THEN it aint a guarantee she'd get out.  The whole move down there is a gamble based off of the "hope" that her step dad can score a job down there.  If he dont then what?  Its a black hole and now we're in the middle of it.  We go back and forth with no resolution so then i was like whatever.  Dont get upset if things become hostile in the house cause shes forced upon me in an already high stress environment.  I was so worried about findin a job that'll keep me close to home but now im like f it.  whatever trade i wanna learn i aint worried about it im gonna be gone as long as it takes and come back when its over.  Go back downstairs and watch some movies and look up the physical requirements its gonna ask of me.  I try to see if right here right now im able to achieve it....noooooot so much lol.  lackin a lil in the pushup, situp section and Lord only knows if ill be able to run the full 1.5 miles in 13minutes.  Feelin a lil fatigued i got a cup of water and a slice of Boston Creme Pie lol.

 

Saturday- Got up and showered tryin to relax muscles from all stress tension.  Checked the mail and got another packet from another job lead that could keep me around.  Went up the street to see if they had a local office i could talk to but they didnt the closest was Tacoma so drove up there to see if i could get more info.  But they were closed on weekends so id have to go back monday if i truly wanted to talk to'em.  Grabbed some brochures they had and started to head back south.  Got a thought in mind that i wanted some chicken so went to see if Ezell's (72nd/Pacific av) was open and they were! Got some food and headed further down Pacific seein the prices of gas get lower and lower! found an am/pm that had unleaded for $3.93/gallon!  gettin to sr 512 i saw exxon and chevron till tryin to sell gas for $4.09 and $4.13/gallon i was like no wonder they just grossed $11.8 billion over the last 3 months cause people still buy from'em KNOWIN they gettin raped.  There was a Cenex gas station that had the audacity to try to sell still $4.31/gallon! and that station sure nuff was empty too. serves'em right.  Came back home watched some tv and studied a lil, miracle gro'd the garden.